If We Were Having Coffee…I Would Say It’s Time for Wine.

And indeed, if we were having coffee, I would decline the cup of joe and go for something cool, crisp and white. The humidity is dense in SC tonight and even for this devoted coffee-drinker, the hot drink (and only acceptable way for me to drink coffee) is a no-go tonight.

If we were having coffee, I would say I can’t believe the summer (break) ends tomorrow. That I have a first-grader. That I survived with three boys at home and only occasional help.

That I lost the woman I considered my rock, my confidante and friend, who has been a gracious, kind and loving mother to me and grandmother to my children, and who was a devoted partner and soulmate to my dad.

If we were having coffee, I would say my dad turns 71 tomorrow. That I’m not sure what to say, other than happy birthday. What do you say one someone’s birthday when they are reeling from a devastating loss?

If we were having coffee, I would say a friend remarked to me not long ago: “Wow! This year has really sucked for you!” That I was taken aback by the comment.

Has it been a tough year? Absolutely. Tougher than most? Yes, but that’s life, right?

If we were having coffee, I would say I think this year has (overall) been pretty good. That I started a new business and it’s going well. That I had an emergency c-section for a prolapsed cord and my son’s heart rate was in the 80s prior to delivery. He was born with a 1-minute APGAR of 4 (out of 10…not the worst, but not good). Today he is a sweet, cuddly, 18-pound 5 month-old who blesses our lives every day. Thanks to the many little things that happened in the 16 hours before he was born, we were in the right place, at the right time, with my OB of 20 years taking care of us. That I achieved my goal of running in the Dayton Muddler and my time was less than 3 minutes off last year. And that it ain’t over yet.

If we were having coffee, I would say: I’m back. I’ve been haphazardly posting through the summer, but that routine is on the horizon. That, and the dawn of a new day.

See you soon. Happy trails 🙂


5 thoughts on “If We Were Having Coffee…I Would Say It’s Time for Wine.

  1. I’m sorry for your loss. You’ve had some good things this year, too. That’s great to hear. It’s all about how we react really and you are staying positive. Hope your first grader has a great first day (and year)!

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    • Thanks, Amie. My first grader is enjoying school very much! We are abundantly blessed, and I’m grateful every day for this. It comes with it’s share of pain and struggle, but on the good days, I can see that I am handed what I can handle, it does make me stronger and more grateful for the wonderful in my every day. I was blessed for almost 27 years by having my step mom in my life. I wish there had been more years, but…when we reach the end with someone special, don’t we all?
      I missed the coffee talk this week, but aim to return regularly!!

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